Nervous.

Right now, I am really nervous about my job!

My biggest concern is that I'll make an idiot out of myself. I have ADD, and I get distracted easily, so I come off as 'ditsy'. Now, all my life, people have accepted 'ditsy' as part of my personality, and even thought it was cute. Sure, they made fun of me, but it was always in a loving way.

If I'm a waitress, ditsy is NOT going to be cute anymore. I'm trying to just sort of pre-train myself...you know, just learning how to concentrate on one thing. But it's just so nerve wracking! I remember during certain babysitting jobs a couple years ago, all the kids would be running in fifty different directions, screaming, getting into things they weren't supposed to, and while I was trying to stop one of them, another would be doing something worse! I was lucky to have my sister there to help me, but sometimes, I'd look around and I wouldn't know how to even start rounding them up, you know? At that point, I would just have to force myself to laugh and be calm, and then after a few minutes I would start going after them again. Maybe that's a good thing, maybe it's not...but what if that happens while I'm a waitress? People will be waiting on me for things...what if I don't have a moment to breathe and be calm?

I think I can handle this. I have two days of training before they 'set me free', and I know if I just concentrate, I can pull off anything I want to.

It's just SCARY!!!

Waitress.

Today, I went in for my first job 'interview'.
I applied at 'The Tree', which is a nice, homey restaurant about 5 minutes from my house.
Truth be told, it wasn't an interview at all. I already had the job, thanks to Michael. He put in a good word for me, and when someone has been working there as long as Michael has, they usually just trust their recommendations.
I was SOOOOOO nervous before the interview...I was screaming at everyone in my family, and getting upset about everything.
When I got there, though, they made me comfortable. Everyone kept saying things like, "Why are you with Michael?" and asking him things like, "How did you get a girl like that?" hahaha...
Michael took me off to this side area where there was a big fireplace, and a table where I was going to be interviewed. The lady who owns the restaurant (with her husband) was with me pretty quickly, and began to talk to me about the schedule and everything.
Apparently on Tuesday and Wednesday I work from 5 to 10, but those are really just going to be my training days. I am going to be 'shadowing' two different waitresses. One of them I know already...her name is Catherine. She's pretty nice. I met her at Michael's church a couple of times. Then there's Shana, who seems nice, too.
All they really told me was that I needed to look presentable, be organized, pin my hair up, and wear a white shirt with black pants. They also gave me a menu to study and become familiar with.
I'm so nervous about my first day, but also really excited! I'm also going to be working with my boyfriend. While I realize that working with him isn't going to be 'all flirting all the time', it's going to be nice to be near him so much, you know?