God Cannot Be Defined

I have a confession to make.
I am confused about God and His character.
I know a few solid things about Him...He is faithful. He is good. He is all-powerful. But what is He?
Just when I think He is something, He becomes everything, and I struggle to understand how and why and where from.
It is evident from looking at the world around us and everything He has created that He is very diverse, with many different angles and aspects and parts of Him...But God cannot be just one personality, because if he were, He couldn't have created all the personalities we see today.
So if He is not just one thing, what is He? How do you describe God?
He is not a concept, and yet He created concept.
He is not a human, and yet saying He is a spirit gives Him limits, which is not possible.
That's just what I am trying to say...There is no way to limit God, and that is exactly what it is to describe someone or give them a label. Limit them. Put them in a box and expect only certain things from them. It does not work on the God of the Universe - the God of things beyond the limits of the Universe - the God of things we do not know.
He is the God of intellectuals and eccentrics and little old church ladies and boy-crazy teenage girls and girl-crazy teenage boys and missionaries and pastors andn terrorists and rapists - and He made them all and loves them all. They are all so different, and yet He is the God of them all.
I guess one of my biggest issues about God is the fact that He doesn't hate or even dislike any person. I am a loving person, and I don't hate anyone, yet I will admit that there are people I cannot stnad or that are very very different from myself. How can God relate to all of them as He relates to me? Everyone has someone or some type of person that they don't like. Some lifestyle that drives them nuts. How can God be my God and yet be the God of Margaret, who lives in a nudist colony and eats only sushi? How?
I constantly bring God down to my level and ask Him to explain Himself, and yet He never does...I don't have to understand, I just have to trust, and I guess that's where my problem is. I keep trying to understand Him instead of trust Him. I want to give Him an exact definition - I want to be able to give the answer to Who, What, When Where, and Why. I want Him to be small enough for me to comprehend - the way I comprehend my siblings and develop certain tactics that I know will work on each of them. How do I trick one who is omnicient? How do I have the advantage over the God who knows all things - including my heart and mind and the depths of my soul and my deepest longings - the things I don't care to admit are even a part of me - my past, present, and future - Not only the me that I believe I can define, but the me that lies beneath the surface - the me which I do not know and the me that would frighten me if I knew she were even there?
Who?
What?
When?
Where?
Why?
How do you pinpoint Him that has no beginning?
I think many of the things we know about God (such as the fact that 'He' is a 'Him') are the things that God allows us to believe because we are so limited by language, He allows us to call Him 'He' and gives Himself a name ('God') because He knows we will ask the little questions I am asking now. "If God is not a man and He is not a woman, what is He? And what should we call Him when we talk about Him, if not 'he' or 'she'?" And, "What do we call Him?"
He knows that it would blow our little minds if He revealed what He is, or even if He gave us a new set of terms to define Him that are different from the specifications we use to describe whether a being is male or female.
The more I ponder these things, the more I realize that it is impossible to define God. As I said earlier, to define or label someone is to limit them. We can try to define God as much as we want to, but One such as Him cannot be confined by such things. He cannot be confined by anything!!! Humans torture each other with labels and definitions and political correctness and limitations and laws and social rankings...But God is not human. He made us and therefore we submit to Him, He does not submit to us.
It is stupid enough for us to place these limitations on ourselves and each other, but GOD??? Submitting to a HUMAN standard? Give me a break.

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In the book "Boy Meets Girl - Say hello to Courtship!", Joshua Harris (the author) shows three 'tricks' humans use to make themselves feel innocent, like they are somehow worthy of God's forgiveness instead of accepting the simple truth that they are evil down to the very core, and that the only way they are forgiven is through Christ and His sacrifice.

1. Minimizing Sin - People love to minimize their sin. Laugh it off...say they were 'wild' when they were young instead of that they were sinful. Make it seem so trivial that it seems like it's no wonder God forgave it.
2. Ignoring Holiness - This is when people bring God down to their level. You know...Act like God is as tolerant of sin as we are. Like God is laughing with us when we laugh off sin. Sin is sin. 1 Peter 1:15-16 But now you must be holy in everything you do, just as God who chose you is holy. For the Scriptures say, "You must be holy because I am holy." (NLT)
3. Living Self-Righteously - This is the 'guilt remover' I am most guilty of. After the mistakes I've made in my past, I became close to God and vowed that I would never do those things again. I became very holy in my own eyes - I saw myself as the 'good kid' that most adults make me out to be. The one who would never do anything wrong. I loved that title and wore it proudly, sometimes even talking self-righteously to my friends that did things I did not approve of, or that I knew God wouldn't approve of. I don't believe it is a bad thing to know that something is wrong, but to act like you are 'above' someone else because they do something wrong is also WRONG!!! I guess for some reason I thought that because I was a good girl when I wasn't being tempted, I was completely capable of being a good girl all the time. Well, I was wrong. I still can't pinpoint a major sin, but lately I have been sinking back into some of my old habits, and I have known that I was wrong to do them. "Who I am hate who I've been" has become my theme song, and because of that, I have started to not only hate what I've been, but love what I become, and I shouldn't.

I thank God for this reality check. He has showed me to never love myself, because I will ALWAYS be a sinner...not a sinner who miraculously re-earned her spot in God's Kingdom, but a sinner to whom the miraculous gift of Grace has been given.

Now I want to put in an excerpt from 'Boy Meets Girl', which is actually an excerpt from another book, called 'When God Weeps', by Steven Estes and Joni Eareckson Tada. This is amazing guys...don't stop reading.

The face that Moses had begged to see - was forbidden to see - was slapped bloody (Exodus 33:19-20). The thorns that God had sent to curse the earth's rebellion now twisted around his own brow....

"On your back with you!" One raises a mallet to sink in the spike. But the soldier's heart must continue pumping as he readies the prisoner's wrist. Someone must sustain the soldier's life minute by minute, for no man has this power on his own. Who supplies breath to his lungs? Who gives energy to his cells? Who holds his molecules together? Only by the Son do "all things hold together" (Colossians 1:17). The victim wills that the soldier live on - he grants the warriors continued existence. The man swings.

As the man swings, the Son recalls how he and the Father first designed the medial nerve of the human forearm - the sensations it would be capable of. The design proves flawless - the nerves perform exquisitely. "Up you go!" The lift the cross. God is on display in his underwear and can scarcely breathe.

But these pains are a mere warm-up to his other and growing dread. He begins to feel a foreign sensation. Somewhere during this day an unearthly foul odor begins to waft, not around his nose, but His heart. He feels dirty. Human wickedness starts to crawl upon his spotless being - the living excrement from our souls. The apple of His Father's eye turns brown with rot.

His Father! He must face His father like this! From heaven the Father now rouses himself like a lion disturbed, shakes His mane, and roars against the shriveling remnant of a man hanging on a cross. Never has the Son seen the Father look at him so, never felt even the least of his hot breath. But the roar shakes the unseen world and darkens the visible sky. The Son does not recognize these eyes.

"Son of Man! Why have you behaved so? You have cheated, lusted, stolen, gossiped - murdered, envied, hated, lied. You have cursed, robbed, overspent, overeaten - fornicated, disobeyed, embezzled, and blasphemed. Oh, the duties you have shirked, the children you have abandoned! Who has ever so ignored the poor, so played the coward, so belittled my name? Have you ever held your razor tongue? What a self-righteous, pitiful drunk - you, who molest young boys, peddle killer drugs, travel in cliques, and mock your parents. Who gave you the boldness to rig elections, foment revolutions, torture animals, and worship demons? Does the list never end! Splitting families, raping virgins, acting smugly, playing the pimp - buying politicians, pracitcing exhortation, filming pornography, accepting bribes. You have burned down buildings, perfected terrorist tactics, founded false religions, traded in slaves - relishing each morsel and bragging about it all. I hate, loathe these things in you! Disgust for everything about you consumes me! Can you not feel my wrath?"

Of course the Son is innocent. He is blamelessness itself. The Father knows this. But the divine pair have an agreement, and the unthinkable must now take place. Jesus will be treated as if personally responsible for every sin ever committed.

The Father watches as His heart's treasure, the mirror image of himself, sinks drowning into raw, liquid sin. Jehovah's stored rage against humankind from every century explodes in a single direction.

"Father! Father! Why have you forsaken me?!"

But heaven stops its ears. The Son stares up at the One who cannot, who will not, reach down or reply.

The Trinity had planned it. The Son endured it. The Spirit enabled him. The Father rejected the Son whom He loved. Jesus, the God-man from Nazareth, perished. The Father accepted his sacrifice for sin and was satisfied. The Rescue was accomplished.

I Kissed Dating Goodbye

I recently finished reading 'I Kissed Dating Goodbye'.
It was God that initially asked me to read it, but He asked me through my friends.
Three of them mentioned the book, (singing its praises) within a few weeks! I took this is as a hint from God that He might want me to read it, and so one morning I sat down to read it and couldn't put it down. I finally forced myself to so that I could do my chores, and I walked out into the kitchen to my mom yelling, "Kendra! I kissed dating goodbye is on the radio!!!" What she meant was that they were re-airing a radio interview with the author of the book!
I couldn't believe it!!! I had JUST been reading it...On top of all my friends recommending it, now THIS???
Of course, I read it within a week, and I loved it.
It emphasizes Courtship, which according to Joshua Harris, is a time for a 'couple' to deepen their friendship, grow in the Lord together, see how they react together as a couple, and test the possibility of marriage.
Now that may sound very serious, and I guess it is.
Joshua Harris says in the book that you shouldn't pursue a romantic relationship unless you're ready to get married.
At first that sound threatening, and I didn't receive it well at first. But thinking about it some more, I think it really is quite an inspirational statement. I mean, it makes you WANT to be ready for marriage, and so it motivates you to treat others with more kindness, respect, and love. It also motivates you to become more efficient as far as running a household. I hate chores just like everyone else, but now I see a purpose in them...I'm preparing myself for the day when I run a household of my own!
I've also realized that if I'm going to be ready to be married, I need to have a firm foundation in Christ. I love Jesus, but I am not as devoted as I ought to be.
It's just a spectacular book, and if you are a teenager, you ought to read it...it's excellent.
I really believe (especially since God so obviously shoved it in my face) that He wants me to follow the concepts introduced in the book...and I am willing.
Now I'm reading, "Boy Meets Girl - Say Hello to Courtship!"
Do you want to know something? While we're on the subject of marriage and all that good stuff, I just think I ought to share that I've NEVER had a good dream about getting married. Never. At least not to my knowledge. In all of them, I'm scared to death, or wanting to run away, or calling off the wedding. It's awful!

Hello Everyone!

Hey Guys! My name is Kendra. Right now, I'm almost sixteen years old.
I am a Christian...That is the most important thing about me. My God is everything, and I love Him so much! I screw up WAY too much, but He always forgives me, and He picks me up, and He helps me do so much better than I could possibly dream of doing on my own. He's blessed me beyond imagination, and I love Him for it!!!
Besides that, even if He never blesses me again, He sent His son to die for me...Isn't that enough?
I am into the arts. That's not to say I'm any good at them! I like to write, draw, play piano, sing, act, and just make things! I love to use my abilities and skills for God's glory. I don't do it nearly as often as I ought to, but when I get up onstage to sing, and I ask Him to work through me, He answers my prayers in flying colors...I sound better than I would if I just did it for fun.
There's so much more I want to say, but right now my family is watching, "I Love Lucy", and I want to go watch it with them...so...
BYE!